Morning page #152 Survival

 Woke at 11:...something a few seconds/ minutes after 11, I woke to my alarm going off. 

I'm not sure if I want to do a morning page today, I'm still a little tired.

Went to the kitchen to get some tea and I ended up just washing my cup because I saw something in the oven ( that I saw it was on not that I checked). 

Is it sandwiches?

Should I still drink tea?

Should I tell my mum not to use the blue one but the old one? actually, it's oats milk.

Still tired, should I lie on my back or my front?

Should I lie from the leg side to the head side or the other way around?

11:31 am listening to audiobooks on Youtube. I tried writing on my back but the pen doesn't work that way. Listening to audiobooks makes it easier to take books in. When I am reading an actual book I...

(1) need to reread what I've read more than once and

(2) read slowly, like one book a year {if that} slowly.

This morning page is called 

Getting to know me 2 aka my little qukes (I don't think that's the right spelling) quirks.

I usually find it pretty helpful to say the information. what I am doing in my head. Like just now when my sister was looking for her slippers, her black slippers. It made me realise the...

My sister just brought an egg and sausage sandwich to my room...nice.

...the things I do to survive.

hmm, maybe this morning page should be titled survival.

The fact that I've always had a TV in my room. It was never a debate between my parents. It was just in there. I never had to write up a presentation about why I should have it.  Come to think of it because the first time it was left in there after my sister moved out. Maybe she did have to convince my parents to let her have it in her room. There wasn't a presentation, I would have remembered that. The biggest thing put in place for my survival is my difficulty talking to people. I know you might be saying to yourself sounds like if it was the opposite it would come in handy, but if you knew my life you wouldn't say that. You see talking to makes things worse. In that, they increase my worry. Because people champion the world champions the people who are better at talking. The biggest myth in this world is that the only way to communicate is with your words.

28 minutes, see you when I see you.