woke up at 9:09 am.
Val came to my room or was sent to my room it's not clear.
I used the toilet ( number 1) then I went to the kitchen. the sponge was missing so I used another one. FYI the sponge was hidden in the dishes. it's just one of those lessons about not being too hard on yourself. I would have told myself in the past I should have seen that. why didn't I check there? I'm also thinking why would someone put it there? I can't wash without it, a stupid place to put it. I know it wasn't ( probably) placed there it fell there.
9:40 a.m. a cup of orange tea in front of me. diagnosis murder on my laptop.
Mum just asked me if anyone came to talk to us in secondary school ( he was about to talk to kids at school in Nigeria) it's been 23 years, and guess what... of course, I don't remember. but I say yes because I know that's the answer she wants.
number one: I don't know why it's important I say yes to this it seems important to you.
number two: I don't see why I don't remember it wouldn't be. it's the only answer for an average person who hasn't been to or anywhere near school in 23 years.
number three: I know I don't know is an OK answer to a question. this is what I will up I realised this is how many of my conversations/ interactions go.
Tea check: drinkable.
I didn't place anywhere on my list. it was so important to make you happy, to say the to not say the wrong thing, I lost myself. I think the reason it went unnoticed by me and others was because when I lied it wasn't outrageous. like that above I just said I remembered when I didn't, said I agreed when I didn't. I am going to recognise these and try my best to lead with honesty no matter what.
All dreams are impossible before they become possible. The doubts make my walls stronger.
26 minutes, (that's when my next appointment is) see you when I see you.