Hello, again old friend. No nothing because it’s too hot man.
6: 18am, Good Mythical Morning on YouTube.
I’m at a point in my life where I am finally being honest
with myself. I just got to a point of frustration and after some soul searching
(Which I think I mentioned on the last one). After having a lot of questions
answered.
I found myself doing a deep dive into females diagnosed with
autism later in life and had this light bulb moment. Every single one of those
women talked about ‘Masking,’. It made me slowly realise I was doing the same.
‘Oh…it makes so much sense now,’
See as a child I was shy. Shy and quiet, if you met me, it
would be obvious to you it’s not really something I can hide. The only way I
can articulate it is like feeling like I missed a class. It made me look back on my
life in certain situations and it’s just given me clarification. Whenever I’m hanging
with others I’m always on high alert. The question that always floats in my
head is ‘Am I doing this wrong am I doing this right?’
Everything has changed because I now know the reason for why
I am the way. It’s been eye-opening and I look forward to learning more.
I’ve been feeling a little unmotivated to write lately so
this is a good start. I keep telling
myself I just need to start, I'll get out of my rut soon. I don’t want it to be 10 years before I look
at my novel again Daily routine consists of me drawing somethings
(sketch-a-day/doodle-a-day).
1 hour, see you when I see you. (hopefully not in another
6months)
