Thursday 13 January 2022

Morning pages #116 I'm changing

10:59am cup of peppermint tea in front of me, Sherlock Holmes the blanched soldier on my apple mac. 

I set myself a goal to read 100 books this year. It might seem a lot, but I think it's doable because I read 83 books last year. I worked it out that if I read 8 a month I could do it. 
That's how I taught myself to handle things like this, break them down into small pieces. I mean 100 is a big number 8 12 times makes it manageable. 

I'm trying not to repeat something I've written before, which is why I had to delete the last one. I must remember to delete it from my USB. 
 
I am noticing a change in myself. it's not really something that would be noticeable to others, though some of it might. I even cut my hair a week ago, but that's not what I'm talking about. Any social interaction...any time another person was in the room. I'd be on high alert, worrying about the high standard I put on myself. My heart would be going 100 miles per hour. Today I was relaxed. Of course, I worried, and I overthought (I don't think that's a word) till the cows came home. It was all fine because everything I said was the truth (ah, speaking in riddles) 

20 minutes, see you when I see you.

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