Wednesday 30 November 2016

You got this.

I applied for a job (customer service,training) a few days ago (27 November). To be honest it was the

"Don't worry If you're lacking in skills" 
that drew me to it.

I thought to myself I'm just going to apply to this, what's the worst that could happen, you don't get a response.
And like a good friend once said

"If you don't ask, you don't get."

I got a call the next day inviting me for an interview. The lady told me they hand picked my CV. I think I said at one point. you saw my CV. The day came, I was told to wear business attire. So I went there in my jeans, t-shirt and trainers...just kidding (I don't own trainers...well I do but, I haven't worn them in years I'm guessing they probably don't fit me anymore) I know what business means.
The place was pretty easy to find. The interview started well, then the guy started talking about the next stage sort of like a trial run, then he said...

"Face to face."

and

"Observation"

Ooh...uh.

"We'll call you back between 4-6 today to let you know if you will be moving on to the next step (I feel like I'm on X-factor). If you don't hear from us, you were not successful."

Sitting on the bus, negative voice piped up...

'If you get the call back, if being the operative word...there is no way that they won't find out the truth. That you're too shy and quiet to ever be able to do this job.'

Positive voice (God) was having none of it...

'You can do this, Esther. Remember everything happens for a reason. God would not have put you here if he didn't think you could do it."

Well it's 2 am in the morning so I'm guessing I didn't get it. I'm not too dishearten, in the words of Westlife...

"You've got to fight for every dream
'Cause who's to know
Which one you let go
Would have made you complete."

Yes I did just quote Westlife...or their writers at least...I joke, I was a fan of Westlife, loved their songs.
I will tell you this It's amazing what wearing a suit can do to your confidence, Maybe, I'll only wear suits from now on.
When one door closes another one opens...I got a text from the manager of a McDonald to come in for an interview,fingers crossed.

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