Thursday, 11 August 2022

Morning pages #135 How I know it’s love

 06:44 am cup of dark chai tea in front of me, even though I'm not really a fan. I was trying to replace my usual black tea. I used to buy one a few years ago that worked, it was lovely.

Finished watching 'Lie to me,' on disney+ last night and I was looking for something to watch.

 

"Watch perception,"

 

I tried 'Burn notice,'. I mean I am familiar with the title but I haven't seen it up until now for some reason, not a fan.

Then I went to 'Criminal minds: beyond boards,'

 

'Watch 'Perception,'

 

Though I remember Gary Sinise from CSI: NY. It would usually be enough to keep watching. Along with believability and good acting. Those things go hand in hand.

 

I've seen 'Perception,' before, not when it was first aired, but years ago, like 2018 maybe.

These last few years have caused me to be honest with who I am, I'm funny, and I'm smart. I'm smart because I'm very curious and I know there's a lot I don't know. On paper, you might think I am smart because I read a lot. No, it's because I watch too much TV. That's how I masked the fact I was autistic for so long.

 

This morning page is titled

 

How I knew I was in love.

 

My honesty lead me to the realisation I've always known what I want. Or more accurately what I don't. When I left school with not great GCSEs. I knew I wanted to help people. I knew I didn't want to disappoint or make the wrong choice.

How I know I'm in love

 

It's been 10+ years which should be enough. Also, I never stopped day and night. I am thinking of him. I mean I don't know any more than the first year we met, fact is I want to.

 

53 minutes, see you when I see you.

I got distracted watching 'Perception,' I forgot how good this show is and how amazing of an actor Eric McCormack is.

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