Woke at 10:41 am and decided to write a morning page.
Should I make myself tea or just write it without?
I was tired, the heavy to move tired. Which leads to can’t be bothered. While in the kitchen I decided to change my usual tea and make myself a hot chocolate latte. No milk in the house though.
Google search: What to do when there is no more milk in the house.
The hot chocolate was finished so I used the container for my dreams jar.
11:17 am, Lie to me on Disney+. That hot chocolate latte is not terrible without milk. I was hungry so I made cut some fruit.
Craving some crunch, like crisps.
I’m trying to put a positive spin on my anxiety. This moment in the past was always full of worry. Like I said before everything that could go wrong would go wrong. A week before, now a day. It’s like a cycle my work coach will tell me what I am not doing. This time it was that I am not job searching enough or in the right way. I don’t disagree (apart from the right way bit) then I’d worry I would be…it seems weird, I guess…
(I don’t want to say stupid because I’m trying to eliminate that from my vocabulary)
Crazy (crazy might be a better word) to say this because I’m turning 38 in a few weeks…told off
My positive
I am one step closer to not having this in my life. Even though it’s been in my life a very very long time it will soon be over. I can only do what I can do nothing more nothing less. I have got to focus on the reason no matter what. I shall not, I will not overanalyze like I own a time machine.
Damn it I need to wee.
I decided to take my plate and cup into the kitchen and wash them. While there I saw my mum making food, I will enjoy that later.
After this, I’m going to journal.
55 minutes, see you when I see you.
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