Friday, 26 August 2022

Morning page #142 Universal Credit out of my life

 Woke at 10: 48 seconds later my mum brought my niece, Valerie, to my room with a toy. That's how she says can you look after her for a while? 

I slept to family guy episodes, in turn, woke to it too. 

currently, season 4 episode 26 is playing.


10:56 am, I am awaiting a phone appointment at 2 pm. I'm anxious about it. I was meant to go to recruitment on the 24th of August (my birthday). I didn't tell my work coach at the time. 

The reason: I did forget for a second is that whole 'must be right or else' thing. I thought I didn't have a choice. Been one way for so long that I forgot I have one. 

I am worried my work coach will be mad. She will have expected me to go. 

I'm worried she'll say 


"why didn't you say it was your birthday,'


and I won't be able to say the above reason. This anxiety before an appointment is the reason I know universal credit can't stay in my life for much longer. I will be much much happier when it's gone.


Right now I'm thinking about the love of my life.

I wonder what my soulmate is doing this second?

Is he asleep?

Is he awake?

How many days till he makes contact?


That's the stage on my journey to a relationship and therefore all my dreams coming true. In the past I would be like, I hope he feels the same way and I wish for him to contact me. Now I'm like, I know he feels the same way. Can't wait for him to contact me 

(11:11 am)

15 minutes, see you when I see you

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