I woke up at 10:30 a.m. to my Sister saying the gas was off (after going to sleep at 9 a.m. I spent only about 5 minutes trying to get It on so there's an improvement. Despite the really bad period pain I decided to write a morning page. I forgot to plug In my computer was completely dead. It took its time coming on for some reason.
11:11 I have no choice but to let life happen because the things I want require another person to be removed or placed. Take my biggest dream, well my biggest dream is to change the world. My second biggest dream is to get married and have kids. It's going to require my future hubby to first realise he can't live without me. Secondly, contact me. Before I stopped beating myself up about not being able to say words. I thought it was because I was fearful of rejection. I was unsure about his feelings and didn't want to put him in a position where he had to reject me. I still feel the same way I did in 2006. If he had rejected me, he would have changed the way I felt about him. I don't mean felt felt, I mean the way I saw him.
58 minutes, see you See you when I see
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