09:49 am a cup of loose tea leaf in front of me. Diagnosis Murder on the laptop. I woke to the hot house episode.
A few days ago I questioned myself, as I do. I found myself asking
'Am I actually autistic or just a high empath,'
I thought for about a second. I was reminded of the thing that cemented it in my head...Masking. When I read the things a high empath has all of them were true for me (every single one) I think people always knew there was something. Like I have said before I was considered shy. That says I struggled with my confidence. I always knew it was more than that. Always had 'Am I wrong, am I right,' on a loop in my head. This led to hesitation and filtering. I was always on alert, robot-like. In fact (this just came to me) there are people that I still do that with, filter myself. Only a few people where I'm truly myself. Where the 'Am I wrong am I right,' is low. In the future, I want to spend more time with those people and less with others.
All dreams are possible.
I'm ready for the next chapter to begin
51 minutes see you when I see you.
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