Friday, 1 September 2023

Morning Page 235 5 things you should about me (number 3) #inpatiences

Woke to a package of 2 multipacks of Walkers, which makes 4. God said surprises this month. I went to the kitchen. No plates in the sink. I was washing my cup but stopped because someone was in the bathroom. I don't want to be screamed at (because of the hot water you know) I don't even know if anyone is taking a shower in there. The first time went to the Kitchen It was 11:11.

11:32 am a cup of Peach tea in front of me. Diagnosis Murder on the laptop. I have s playlists but those videos will be removed by YouTube, soon in my experience. 
I don't think much about what I am going to write before I write it. I'm not even trying to pick things that a lot of people know about me. I let the universe decide. Which one will be number 3? 

I have been thinking a lot about this yesterday.

Tea check: Still hot

My patience hasn't been there since birth. Life beat it into me. In fact, the thing I realised last night was I am just as Impatient as the next person. I just do my impatientness inwardly. I go for an Interview and the receptionist says

'she's just finishing up she'll be about 5 minutes

I guarantee you l will still be sitting there 2 even 3 hours later.

Tea Check: drinkable

Oh, as soon as I sit down I'll think..
'Pretty sure she said 5 minutes,' 
'Did she say 5 minutes?'
'Maybe I should go over and remind her!'
'She has probably forgotten about me!'

And it's only been 5 seconds. In this case, I'm saying overthinking means Impatience. A question just jumped in my head.

'Does Impatience mean overthinking?'

I would say generally no, but patience leads to overthinking, I hate to wait. It allows my anxiety to fester.

All dreams are possible.
Survival mode is done 
I am ready for the next stage to begin.

37 minutes, see you when I see you.

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