I had 2 dreams that remembered some details about.
Oh, I just remembered another.
it had Amanda and Dr Slone from Diagnosis Murder in it. yes, some dreams are because I watch too much TV.
10:10 am diagnosis murder on the laptop, A cup of Peppermint and peach tea in front of me. Dangerous since I have an appointment with the Jobcentre in like an hour. There are no toilets in the Jobcentre which makes (at least public) zero sense.
Today is about my Process, It's inward. This is why despite the evidence against it, like other positive stories. I know therapy will not work for me. You may say...
'You won't know unless you try,'
but that's the mistake I have made in the past. I was listening to outward sources. fact is talking to people is difficult for me. it's like a chore. I'm more likely to say things (through guesses) that my therapist wants to hear.
Tea check: drinkable
As you know from previous morning pages I have been a people pleaser. I have ignored my true feelings. How I process it is I have something I am worrying about, I went to the kitchen and now my happy mood Is low. I will sit in silence. I will meditate. I will realise I am overthinking again In 30 minutes my worry is less and I am back to happy. Outwardly would cause me to stay in it for longer. Now not only am I worrying about this thing I am worrying about. I'm also worrying about your feelings.
23 minutes, see you when I see you.
All dreams are possible.
It all works out for me in the end and I love it.
I am ready for a new chapter.
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