Woke up at 9:25 am went to the kitchen washed the plates in the sink, and half made a graze tea, but there was no milk. So changed it to peppermint tea.
10: 24 am youtube on my laptop.
I'm thinking about the things or conversations I have in my head. I am 20% words and 80% thinking. So most of the conversations don't happen out loud.
Course, saying no and having to explain why I'm saying no. But I can't say because I don't want to, that's not good enough. I'm in fighting mode whenever my work coach says
'Can you tell me why?'
I believe my work coach is always coming from a good place. The 'it has worked before', but my work coach is not taking into account my life journey. Whether I need it or not. It's like...It pisses me off when I hear people say
'therapy is great everyone should try it,'
instead of
'Therapy worked for me it might work for me,'
I don't think people realise that there are two types of people in the world. The ones that need to talk to people to feel better. And the ones that talking to people makes things worse, Yes I am one of those people.
This world currently (which I believe can change in the future) has a narrative that is one way to do something and any other way is wrong. That's why I hate the 'therapy for everyone' story. You run the risk of being the talking to people makes things worse person and thinking that you are wrong.
Allow me to figure out what I need and don't need. Allow me to be ok when it deviates from the norm.
All dreams are impossible before they become possible. The doubts make my walls stronger.
40 minutes, see you when I see you.
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