I woke went to the kitchen refilled my water bottle and washed the plates, the usual. I slept to Family Guy after doing my wash day routine. It was supposed to be yesterday but I misread my habit tracker.
10: 29 am cup of Rosehip Hibiscus and pepermint teain front of me. Good mythical morning season 21 on youtube. It took a loooong time to watch from the beginning ( I mean it's not finished, almost though) I think if I watched only this show non stop it could take a shorter time.
My goal right now is to rid myself of the things that stress me. I have recently been thinking of it like being stuck in quicksand. Being there telling myself I am not where I am (what I'm feeling) only hurt me. I learned to be ok while I'm there and not to panic because that makes it worse (I learned to accept this is how I'm feeling). But I will avoid walking in it because not being there makes me happier. Yes, I am stronger for going through it. I didn't know I could get stuck in quicksand and still live to tell the tale. I wasn't aware I was strong like that.
Here's the thing though
Why would I continue to walk through it when I could go around and be happy from the start.
A good real-life example of this is benefit appointments. I get anxious before, everything that can go wrong will go. I am calm, I do my meditation. Afterwards, it's all fine and it all worked out. If I did face anything I handled it with grace. Then it all restarts. Wouldn't it be great if I didn't have to go through that?
Al dreams are impossible before they become possible. The doubts make my walls stronger.
45 minutes, see you when I see you.
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