Morning page #193 (crush)

I woke at 10: 40 am. Lying in bed thinking should I write a morning page today. Went to the kitchen, and washed the plates (by this time I have decided, yes, I am go

11:26 am a cup of lemon tea water (with real lemons) I do not have a cold right now, I just randomly decided to make it.

You know I think lemons would be my family’s mascot (if we had one) My mum swears by it, there is always some in the house. And (I feel iffy about starting a sentence with and) whenever we were ill when we were younger, she gave us lemon tea and honey.

I feel strongly that next year will not only be different it will be the best year yet.

My mum just asked me to design her Christmas carol program (for tomorrow btw) and all I think in my head is to get used to it because this is the last time.

Oh, I forgot to say what I was watching tarot card reading.

Water/ tea check: Still hot

(It is still tea, I mean that is how you make tea (add water)

The thing with tarot card reading is I think I will stop watching them soon, I feel that. It is served its purpose. It is becoming annoying and frustrating to watch at times.

I have decided I am going to make a TikTok about my crush. My life going forward is going to be about not lying. I mostly do it because I want to come back in 5 years and say that was then this is now.

There is a woman I want to be. And until I reach that point, I have work to do.

13 minutes, see you when I see you.