Morning pages #241 mood boosters

Woke at 11:30 a.m. today. Went to check the boiler was on because it's always turned off during the night nowadays. I had a one-sided conversation (talking in riddles I know but I'm not saying who and what It wasn't a bad one) that charged my already teating down mood to fully low, this happens every week. 

My mood is down because my throat is tickling so I made myself Some tea.

 

Tea check: Still hot but drinkable.

this incident got me thinking of my mood boosters

11:50 on the clock my anxious playlist on Spotify, that's the biggest one. I was thinking about my 40th party next year and unwanted guests. Then I was thinking about what will do if I had to tell these people to leave of which there are two. Then I put on Ron Konoly's album 'Sing Out' and I was happy. Music has been boosting my mood Since the days of my VHS tape of his live performance. I would watch It to the end. Then rewind it and watch it again. 

Didnt mention you know who In this morning page yet. I was thinking the other day why I haven't broken down yet. I mean it's been a long time and nothing I want to happen has happened yet. This has been my dream since the first meeting. Apart from a brief moment where I was able to convince myself I wasn't truly madly, deeply in love. Not to be confused with me trying to convince myself I don't feel what I clearly do. It's because I have a life, that's why I haven't broken down in tears over this. I can't imagine if this was all I had in life. 

My new life starts now. A new chapter is around the corner. 

30 minutes, see you when I see you.