Morning page #186

 When I first woke I thought it was 10 or 11, but when I woke again it was a few minutes to 7 am. I'm pretty sure time doesn't go back (at least not more than an hour) 

I went to the kitchen washed the plates in the sink and made my hot drink.

8:16 am, I felt like having a hot chocolate today. Youtube watch list on Mac. Currently, Joe (can't remember his surname at this second) talking about his Christian deconstruction. He is @whatisjoedoing on Youtube 'You can let go of Jesus but what about your cross? 

I have a song in my head, I'm in two minds about if I should class it as random. I was watching GMM (of course) season 9 and I heard the 'song when you want to say I love but can't, The music reminded me of the 'my wife and kids,' episode when Michael is sitting at a piano in junior's room. The only lines I remember are...

'I don't know whether to hit him with the left or the right,'

and

'If he do it again my oldest kid gonna be claire,'

Man, so frustrating, I searched and I searched. So I think binge-watching the show is my best bet.

Hot drink check: drinking temperature, if I sip it.

I think I've changed my opinion about people's deconstruction from the Christian faith because I've had people close to me go through that. This also cemented the opinion is opinion at the end of the day quote in my mind. We grew up the same way, taught the same things (in terms of Christianity anyway) but their conclusion was different from mine. Before this, I would avoid videos of that kind and I saw it as a bad thing. I didn't want to be influenced. I see it as this is your journey. It's not I'm right you're wrong, it's I'm right but so are you. 

I mean we are more accepting of someone who sees someone's (let's say on Youtube) A and B and coming to a conclusion and making a video/blog about this assumption. Then we are the first someone having A and B and that conclusion being different than ours. It's like you're saying you know more about the person's life than they do, it's ridiculous

36, minutes, There is a woman that I want to be and until that point, I have work to do, see you when I see you.