I woke (when I'm typing this it always changes it to up, woke up sometimes I listen, sometimes I egnore it. I said what I said I know it's a gramma thing but gramma is not the point. I write like how I speak) at 11:19 am (and this too, let it go grammarly. I could not write on grammarly {I could change that sentence, I'll resis} but I like having the right spelling of things)
Went to the toilet and then went to the kitchen.
11:46 am, Chai spice in front of me. It's ok, nothing is as good as Masala in my opinion. Was Family Guy, I slept to that. It's nothing at the moment because I was doing my affirmations and will continue after this.
The post came with some packages. For a second there I thought someone had sent me a gift, and then I remembered Tiktok. There are some good finds on there.
Tea check: drinkable
I brought two keyrings that say forever on them one with my initial and the other with my crushes. Well, not a crush anymore (10+ years) but let's just go with that word. I was thinking would I give him his or my initial? It just now came to me, mine duh, because it says forever.
I am worried about my appointment on the 11th which is a phone appointment with Restart. Pointless, there I said it. Universal credit phone appointments are different because it's not as well it's instead od. Phone appointments at UC mean I don't have to go to the Jobcentre. Both still turn up at least 30 minutes late. At this point, you got to wonder if they are doing it on purpose. At least UC isn't a no-show without explanation. I need work-based benefits out of my life but I also need the safety net.
Today Esther doesn't see it changing unless God literary takes his hand and pulls me out. It's just more of the same.
Worry about the appointment, walk through anxiety, the appointment is fine, and do it all again. I'm hanging on to my future self who is saying temporary and everything you wanted.
All dreams are impossible before it becomes possible.
The doubts just make my walls stronger.
23 minutes, see you when I see you
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