I've just now realised 16:54 what my problem is
I have been compared to other people all my life. I know that the person saying this has never meant it the way I took it (which is my second problem btw...telling myself that I shouldn't feel what I'm feeling because of that reason). I think things like 'They did it so should/ could you,' were said I took it as I'm a failure because I can't.
I was in Nigeria eating really tough meat and someone in the room said
'Your grandma can,'
In my mind, I was thinking not only can I not chew it I don't want to. But the thing is I still put that meat in my mouth and tried to chew for a good amount of time because here's this someone who by the way has been chewing this meat for years (probably before I was born)
It's like when I put a sandwich in the oven now I know to put it in the bottom rack for 5 minutes and then the top for the last 10. The first time I did it I didn't know there was a better way. my point is the person was comparing my grandma's part S to my part A, it's not fair.
I think this is the thing that has been blocking me all these years from my authentic self.
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