Thursday, 19 May 2022

Morning pages #122

 7:15am a cup of twinning’s defence tea, it’s just citrus  (I’m guessing lemon since it’s on the packet #sample) and ginger def was a good purchase. Currently watching the big leap, it’s good I’m loving it so far. Between you and me I’m not that impressed with the dancing so far though the acting is exceptional, Scott Foley…love him.

Update: the dancing got better, way better whoa.

Question, why was mum with child’s mum unsupportive then when she didn’t get it she changed to supportive. In fact, no one was supportive except Mike's friends. I love that about them.

 

UC is on my mind. I’m beating myself up for saying yes when I 100% wanted to say no. I go to these appointments and I sit while my work coach goes through a list. Suggestions that are unspokenly (probably not a word) mandatory. Because as someone who is 100% me. Who has been in this system since I was 17 I know what I need. My last job was 5 years ago, which I’m fine with. The only reason I feel pressured to say yes is because they need to be seen like they’re doing something.  Man being a people pleaser is frustrating as hell. Saying yes is easy, After you’ve said it that’s it. No one needs a why when you say yes. Saying no comes with a need for a need explanation 'Because I don’t want to,' is never good enough.

 

1 hour 38 minutes, see you when I see you.

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