Morning pages #2

It’s day 2 and it’s 7: 13am in the morning. This is a making me a morning person and I don’t like it, actually, cold showers (which I recently started to enjoy) is what is making me a morning person, anyway I digress…

For your eyes only, that’s what I read when I typed morning pages into google yesterday. So, I wasn’t supposed to publish it. Despite that I think I’m going to continue to post it, well I am going to post it because you’re reading it right now. If I had gone on google before I started I guarantee I wouldn’t have posted it online, no matter whether I like it or not.

Yesterday I wrote without music. Honestly, I think I write more without music, but I love writing with music…dilemma.

Michael Jackson plays on my phone, on YouTube. The song in the closet is playing, which I always forget about.  

I am single, when I think about finding the one, I look at it with dread. I’m not looking forward to it but I guess I’m always searching for Mr Right, not actively, like I don’t go to clubs and bars, I don’t belong to any online dating sites. Whenever I meet someone new, I’m thinking in my head

‘Will you be the one I marry?’

I’m looking forward to dating, as in getting to know my boyfriend just not the actual search.  Those of you more experienced than me may be saying, no that’s the best thing going on dates and stuff, but for me…because I know that part is going to be infuriating.  A lot of things must fall into place for it to work out. I mean have an idea of what I want in a guy, none of it has anything to do with looks which makes it harder, I think.
Listen I’m 34 now I don’t have time for boys, I’m looking for a husband.

Oh my God, Thriller 37 years ago this year. Woah, that’s the year my brother was born. That song, the video, Michael Jackson himself still has a massive influence on music today. I’m going to briefly talk about the accusations against him. It has nothing to do with the music. That’s why I haven’t seen the R Kelly documentary (not that I see him and Michael at the same level. I honestly haven’t listened to an R Kelly song in months) because I’m not interested, I care that the girls he hurt get their justice but that’s about it, I don’t care about the ins and outs of the situation.

With Michael…if you were to say do I think he’s innocent, I would say, I don’t know that’s my answer. I’m leaning towards one, but I don’t want to say it out loud because what if I’m wrong. I can’t say 100% either way, because I wasn’t there. And the people who have an opinion, either way, I don’t understand because you don’t know.

This time I wrote for… I would say 39 minutes because I stopped a few seconds before the timer went off.