Morning Pages #97

11: 22 am, a cup of fresh ginger and water in front of me. I have not had fresh garlic and water for a while it is ok, but it is not a favourite. I would probably put it last after Lemon and Lime, but I still like it. Agatha Christie's Marple on my Mac. There are 18 episodes, so I have been watching it for days. One of the things I love about this show is the amazing guest stars. Even people I never thought would be on (looking at you Holly Willoughby)

Yesterday was the 21st day of the 21 days of abundance I was doing. The last day was to review in a video, audio, or text form. I choose text form. I wrote it out first, then when it came time to record, I couldn't do it. It felt like when I talk to someone on the phone and I forget things I wanted to say.

"I advise you to make a video next time,"

I started overthinking and regretting. I tell myself I know why I did it that way and that's good enough for me.

My eyes just started itching again.

I am so grateful for these Morning Pages. It is going to help me to write my books, writing without a filter, without editing along the way. I have been learning to do that with my feelings. That includes being in love. I think I reached a turning point when I admitted it to myself only last year. I always told myself it was just a crush (even though it has been 10+ years). I  told myself everything to get rid of my feelings. Just like I did my shy and quietness. Not that he is a horrible person no regrets about not telling even though he is not single now.

"My feelings are valid,"

My wrist always aches when I write on paper and I get pins and needles in my ring finger and my little finger only (for some reason). Maybe there is something I can use or do to stop it; I will look it up after this.  

36 minutes, see you when I see you.