I woke thinking about Sul. Yea I'm past saying it's a crush and not mentioning names, this is love.
Oh I just remembered my dream. Althrough not much of what happened. I know one of the guy's I met during 'Get a life,' was there. Probably why I think I saw Sul.
Tea check: Warm drinkable
Woke up at 10:50 and had a quick shower. The loose tea leaf I order came in the post brought to me by my niece. I havent had a loose leaf tea in months
11:43am 8 out of 10 cats does countdown on my new Ipad (yea) It came with a mouse and keyboard, Loose leaf tea in front of me.
I wonder if I've writen about what I am about to write in here before. Just update on my life/ thoughts.
Well a good example of how my thinking has changed is. I shaved my hair into a Mohawk style (oh surprise) on the 29th September. That would be 2 days ago right now. Then my eldest (or is it better to say oldest) brother said you know i can do it, you should have asked me. My reason for saying no was this
(1) I hate relying on other people that's the main one.
(2) It's about the experience. That's a skill I now have.
(3) I can't go down perfection avenue. This happened when I first shaved my hair it was patchy. My sister asked do I want to get it shaped. Right then I knew she missed the point.
It cant be about what it looks like to others. It has to be what it gives me. What it does for me.
Because before that day I hadn't cut my hair that is an achievement. I need to be brutally honest about the things that make me unhappy. And work on riding myself od those things for my future. Need to be brutally honest about the energies I am surrounding myself in.
24 minutes, see you when I see you.
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